Today marks the start of my 30th year. A lot of people approach their 30th birthdays with a lot of stress and anxiety, but I’m surprisingly fine with it. Excited even. Cause to be honest, I’m not sad to see my twenties go. I won’t miss being broke. I won’t miss the bad relationships. I won’t miss the uncertainty about my future and my self. The bad decisions. Don’t get me wrong, every experience I had taught me a valuable lesson, and for that I am grateful. But I’m ready to move on to the place where I’m not stumbling so much, and enjoying the life that I’ve built. And building the life that I want.
30 is just a number, but I do believe the soul-searching that goes on between the ages of 28-31, which in astrological circles is associated with the Saturn Return (more on this another time), is unlike the introspection we engage in at other times in our lives. If our twenties are supposed to be about “finding ourselves”, then by our thirties we should be found and pursuing whatever it is we’ve decided we want to do with the rest of our lives. Or something. I don’t really buy into the linear societal prescription of “get married, settle down, buy a house, have kids” as the magic formula for happiness. It works for some people, but its not for everyone. I mean, I want those things, but LATER, lol. I still have so much more to do, see and experience that requires a freedom and mobility that I wouldn’t have if I had a child. But that is another blog 
This blog is about embracing my next thirty years, and marveling at how far I’ve come. I am convinced my best years are ahead of me, and cannot wait to see what waits for me in 2006 and beyond. So as my man Tim would sing…
I think I’ll take a moment, to celebrate my age
The ending of an era, and the turning of a page
Now it’s time to focus in on where I go from here
Lord have mercy on my next thirty years
My next thirty years, I’m gonna have some fun
Try to forget about all the crazy things I’ve done
Maybe now I’ve conquered all my adolescent fears
And I’ll do it better in my next thirty years
My next thirty years I’m gonna settle all the scores
Cry a little less, laugh a little more
Find a world of happiness without the hate and fear
Figure out just what I’m doing here
In my next thirty years
Oh my next thirty years
I’m gonna watch my weight
Eat a few more salads, and not stay up so late
Drink a little lemonade and not so many beers
Maybe I’ll remember, lol, my next thirty years
My next thirty years will be the best years of my life
Raise a little family and hang out with my wife (or life partner
Spend precious moments with the ones that I hold dear
Make up for lost time here
In my next thirty years…
~Tim McGraw, “My Next Thirty Years”, A Place in the Sun
(Get used to it, I am likely to be quoting many a country tune, lol)
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